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Not sure why I'm so nervy. Decided to call it a day as far as work goes. I had intended to get a little more done before I saved to my work network but I was far enough along to decide that enough was enough until after my scan tomorrow. What I can't figure out is why the PET/CT scan tomorrow would loom as this dreaded obstacle to get past. It will be my fifth one of it's kind that I've had starting with the initial pre-surgery one I had in February of 2005. I should be an old hat at it by now. I think I meant to say old hand not old hat. I certainly feel a bit like an old hat, a slightly funky one. Perhaps a slightly aging beret with a colorful feather to the side. Yep, I'm getting silly. I used to collect hats. I still have most of my hat collection. I have some hats going back to the 1920s that were my
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Godmother's Aunts. An older friend who saw me perform my original songs wearing one of my funky hats, gave me one she'd saved from when she was a young woman in the 1940s. Then I have hats that were my moms and hats I bought because I thought they were neat. Along the winter hat line, I have a bunch of those stocking style ones in wild colors that a friend brought me when he was visiting a friend who worked at a hat store. My daughter asked me to please take one of the wilder of those hats off, when I picked her up from school in the winter because they were embarrassing to her. I think that's when she was in elementary school. I have a couple of hats that look like what you see Russian soldiers wearing in the 1920s or s
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omething like that except mine are decorative. Maybe I should start wearing hats again to give me a boost. Not sure if I have the pinnache at this point though to carry it off. When I was first dx'd with melanoma, I used it as an excuse to buy some fun summer hats but I rarely wear them. At this point I avoid being outside in the heat of the day and usually don't bother with hats. I love yarrow. The white and red yarrow are old photographs I took. At this point I have more yellow yarrow and only a little of the red and white. I'll have to look and see if I have any photos of my yellow yarrow. Not a great picture but I found one. Yellow yarrow it is. On that note . . . to be continued when I'm not bouncing off the walls. I still can't figure out why I'm bouncing off the walls. This scan tomorrow shouldn't have me so unnerved.
1 comment:
Good luck on your scan tomorrow Carver. Go easy on yourself. It should have you unnerved. It is unnerving for everyone unless you are some kind of super-human! It's not fun and it sucks. It's ok to be scared!
Will be thinking about you. Treat yourself to something afterwards because you deserve it!
Sarah
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