This post will be a return to old programs in more than one way. As far as the photography goes, it's definitely last week's news. Our snow has all melted and we are back to warm, cold, warm, cold weather. I know the birds are happy about the warmer days. You may have to click to enlarge the shot below to see the busy flicker, pecking at the bark of the tree. The main way this will be an old program post is that I'm trying to talk myself out of getting nervous about my upcoming full body PET/CT scan (five weeks away) and surgical oncology check up on the same day. Last year when I had made it three years without a melanoma recurrence at Stage III, I made a conscious decision to declare myself free of it and move on.In some regards I've been more successful at moving on than I thought I would be. Lingering "issues" which I've had since my lymph node dissection are unpleasant reminders but overall, I have done well. I don't expect to be blindsided at this point. However, it's not always possible to push away the undercurrent of anxiety.
I fully expect in March that I will be able to say I have gone four years without a recurrence. I can't decide if it helps me to write about my anxiety at this point or not. Odd since I started this blog as a way of dealing with my melanoma diagnosis and lingering health problems which followed.
I even started my other blog which is almost exclusively photographs so I wouldn't feel weird if I occasionally came back to health topics on this blog. However, as time has gone by, for whatever reason, I feel sort of strange talking about cancer or chronic issues on my blog. Clearly feeling strange isn't stopping me from talking about that old news stuff. I have always been a little strange so I guess strange is normal for me. Now that I'm getting silly, I stop on that comfortable note. I am very comfortable with silly.